The Carpenters : I Need To Be In Love

Posted Thursday, August 23, 2012 by deehan1914

The Carpenters : I need to be in love

I really love the lyrics!

"The hardest thing I've ever done
Is keep believing

There's someone in this crazy world

For me

The way that people come and go

Thru temporary lives

My chance could come and I might never know"

In due time! After I'm done with all my "things-to-do-before-tying-the-knot" .

"I used to say "No promises,
Let's keep it simple"

But freedom only helps you say


It took a while for me to learn

That nothin' comes for free

The price I've paid is high enough for me"

This line struck me the most. Relationships tend to be so frail these days and painful goodbyes are what my friends are usually sobbing about. Nothing comes for free and hence , I must be financially , spriritually and emotionally ready before I'll enter relationships . I am still preparing for that day... I am not just merely waiting for that day!

"I know I need to be in love
I know I've wasted too much time

I know I ask perfection of

A quite imperfect world

And fool enough to think that's

What I'll find

Ah! This is so me! Can't say more!

"So here I am with pockets full
Of good intentions

But none of them will comfort me


I'm wide awake at four a.m.

Without a friend in sight

Hanging on a hope but I'm alright

I think it's not surprising if I'll say I've been thinking about having a boyfriend( think about my age..haha).
But I guess I am alright. I don't want to have a boyfriend just because I feel lonely. I don't want to have a boyfriend for the wrong reasons! Graduate school is making me soooooo busy! I want to graduate soon and enjoy holidays. Oh! The beach on summer days! Good night!

Love is a Verb : My Birthday Blog ( Part I )

Posted Tuesday, August 14, 2012 by deehan1914

Love is a verb
It ain't a thing
It's not something you hold
It's not something you scream

When you show me love
I don't need your words
Yeah, love ain't a thing
Love is a verb
Love ain't a thing
Love is a verb

Love ain't a crush
It ain't an excuse
No, you can't get through love
On just a pile of 'IOU's'

Love ain't a drug
Despite what you've heard
Yeah, love ain't a thing
Love is a verb
Love ain't a thing
Love is a verb

So you gotta show, show, show me
Show, show, show me
Show, show, show me
That love is a verb

- Love is a Verb , John Mayer

Yes, Love is a verb. Hence, I must show it. This blog is to show my love to those who helped me build the person I am now. I think the journey wasn't about me finding myself. I think it was all about me building the person I want to become. It was never about finding. In finding, it means somethings has been laid there already and you just accept it. In building, you boldly decide over things and create the universe you wanted.

I believe in a life formed by the decisions we made, making and will make. Even God allowed us to have freewill because he never wanted "robots". Hence, the things around us are the things we attracted...they are the things we may not know we already pulled to be rotating around us.

Today, before I will turn a year older, I will try to thank everyone I love. I believe I can never thank them enough but a good try might do the job. 

To my God 

I know there was never a moment in my life that I can boldly say that I am worthy of Your love. Everyday is a wonder of how loving You really are. Everyday is a discovery that love is a verb. You never failed to show it and make me feel very good inside.

To my family

I know I am not the perfect daughter my parents deserved. It's a wonder how perfect I feel when wrapped in my parents' embrace. My parents have been through a lot of appalling events in life and I never wanted to bring them down. I need to face this tempting world and live continually in the values that my parents shared to me over the years. My family is not perfect but who says being imperfect will always mean not being the best?

Thank you Mama , Papa, Dodong, Manong, Wengot , Angelo , Ate Gina, Nanay and Tatay . To my Aunt Elsa and cool uncle Tom. Thanks everyone for showing me that love is a verb.

To our dogs Spy, Kikoy and Bruno. Life will always be fun with these cuddly furry friends of mine.

To my soul-sister

You are God's answer to my prayers. I told you that several times in hopes that you will never feel useless. I can never imagine what I did to deserve you. I will always show you how loved you are. Love is a verb!

To my MSU-CBI friends

Life will always be sweet with you guys! The memories will forever make me feel young, imaginative, cheerful and peaceful. It was never about sheer luck.. it was God ! How wonderful  it is to close my eyes and imagine the joyful and brave hearts we had. We were never deterred by the guns , the threats and the literal darkness just to fulfill our sacred duties. Our love for our duties in the church proves that love is a verb...we must show it. 

To my childhood friends

How could time fly this swift? The joy of feeling the rain in our skin without the inconvenience of checking the clock will always be benign. We ought to remember these happy thoughts . At some point in our life ,these memories might be the best we got. 

To my bestfriends and close friends

Honey , thank you for being a reminder that being true to ourselves is liberating. Lolie, you never failed to make me feel important. Che2x, thank you for being there all these years. Lina Mae, I miss you very much. Pookai , our laughter and gleeful stares will forever be cherished. Jenil and Papang , thank you for the years of laughter. Bemai, I will forever try to encourage you . Mamang Norena, how can I ever repay the happiness you brought to our lives at MSU. Ate Yla, I love you Ate.. thanks for the support and I hope your heart will finally find the missing pair. Sarah, I miss our eating session. BB Kris, I miss you and your family. Thank you for letting me stay in your house. Kulot Rosmie and Apo Norein , I am thrilled about the fact that we live in one district now! Xang2x, I will forever admire your intelligence. Jestone, I am happy you are in the choir already. Frizt, I miss hearing you sing.

Glazel and Ate Cj thank you for making graduate school fun. I will always admire you ate Cj.Ging, thanks for understanding me and thank you for your intelligence.  I will always be proud that I once teamed with you girls!

To my mentors

How can you ever repay the person who has inspired you to reach your dreams ? How can you ever thank someone who assured you that even if life will be tough, at the end of the day, it's still beautiful? Thank you very much Sir Richard ! I really want to be someone as inspiring as you are! Thank you Sir..Thank you very much!

I also wanted to thank the book Authors Robert Kiyosaki , James Allen , Stephen Covey, Joshua Harris, Bo Sanchez and Lloyd Luna. I know their purpose in writing is to inspire others. Yes Sirs, you are all successful! You inspired me more than you will ever know.

To J.K Rowling

You gave me a beautiful childhood filled with imaginations and possibilities. You made me a bookworm and I will forever be thankful about that! In , I got sorted to Ravenclaw.Thank you!

To my GNA family

I thought I'll never survive this kind of job but everyone helped me teach with ease. The best thing about this job is that I love the job itself. The staffs, managers , teachers and students are amazing. It will always be heartwarming when a student will say their heartfelt thanks. The feeling of being able to help others is addictive. It makes me feel useful , worthy and able. Thank you for the happy skype moments!

To my graduate school classmates

Thanks Ate Cj, Glazel, Miss Fatima, Miss Orcy , Kulot and sabaan Vines Dee (kai mao man imu gusto na name sa facebook) , Myra , Ate Honey, Maam Judith,Sir Prince, Doc Ed, Mem Juvy, Ate Jang2x , Sir Ryan and Sir Randy , Atty. Christian Moyon (lol) , Tin2x , Miss Jen , Miss blogger Jenny, Xycris, Jiarah , Usana girls Jocelyn and Miss Edvie  and everyone ! I will always remember how stressed and fulfilling our graduate school days.

To those who made me feel loved, cared, important , admirable and worthy... thank you! Thank you very much. To bbfats, thanks for the sweet memories . For dear Myk2x , thank you for that genuine love.

I will be a year older , I just hope I am a year wiser or even more than that.

I'm too far from being perfect . I think it's light-years away. Thank you very much for this life Oh God!

Oh, here's a link to the song that I am listening to right now. Love is a verb by John and Savanna .

Let's show love everyone! After all, love is a verb!

Wondering About the Birthday

Posted Monday, August 13, 2012 by deehan1914

No, there's no hype about my upcoming birthday. No fuss. I like it this way.

I am happy that I reached this age . I feel enormously blessed in trying to  finish graduate school.
Ah! I hope I can use my full potential. I really want to be part of the academe.
It's what I want to do and yeah..I know I'll like the salary too. Hahaha!

This is the first time I'm not thinking so much about my birthday.
I never thought I'll actually feel this way.
Maybe this is a sign that I am getting old.
I have so many things in my mind and I don't want to be bothered by big celebrations.
Yeah, I would like to celebrate but in a silent way.

Tokyo Sky Tree Tower

Posted Sunday, August 12, 2012 by deehan1914

Haha! No, I didn't visit Tokyo to see this Sky Tree Tower. My student is now taking his vacation in Tokyo and asked me to call him because he wanted to show something. How thoughtful ! It's actually our lesson time but he can't have a lesson yet because he is still walking and on his way to the place where he is temporarily staying with his family.

Tōkyō Sukaitsurī looked really pretty and enticing ! The lights were changing into different colors and it looked marvelous when viewed near the river. The reflection of the lights was beyond beautiful ! Oh! How I wish to fly there now! I wanna be in  Sumida, Tokyo now!

Oh! Someday... I will visit the beautiful towers I listed in my journal. What a lovely night!

My Love Life

Posted Tuesday, August 7, 2012 by deehan1914

 After my Hero's death (Hero , the name of my norfolk terrier dog who died due to laxatives ) , this cute Spy brought back joy in our house. Aww..look at him!

 Even the girls of our neighbors went to our house early in the morning . Yes, their grandmom soon came looking for them.

The love of my life is always just below my chair. What a loyal companion indeed! I love you Spy!

That question

Posted Sunday, August 5, 2012 by deehan1914

Ah! This cute photo of Spy and I was taken last week. I took this after my GNA lessons. I was really busy last week. I needed to do so many things for school. I think I really looked terrible last week. Oh boy! The ugly dark circles were making me look unattractive. As always, I've placed more concern on my Corporate Finance report than on my looks. I like how I see things. Hahah! I decided not to place too much efforts in looking good especially in wearing trendy clothes in a effort to possibly catch Mr.Prince Charming's attention. Ah! High heels give me terrible pains and I don't like wearing tight clothes . See, I've always been comfortable wearing T-Shirts,pants and sneakers. I finally got over with using a backpack to graduate school though. Thanks to my sponsors who grew tired of seeing me bring same backpack since I was a University student..ahaha! I received beautiful "lady-like" bags! Oh!Thank you!!! 

This is how I exactly looked last week. Ah! I love my long hair..(only that!) I posted this photo on Facebook and I was really surprised, I must say pleased , reading the comments from my friends. Here are some of the comments I got.

                                                   Jetskie Ferasol ur still pretty madem
Cheryl M. Sapocado soooo pweeeetteee :D ♥
Tanya Miya you still look cute..

Hahah! I just hope my friends are honest this time. So often we tend not to hurt others by saying the "good thing" rather than the "real thing"..LOL... I am guilty to that sometimes and's making me hard to believe in appreciations sometimes. Anyway, I hope I will look better after all these school tasks. I want to graduate and realize my dreams!
Today, I've been asked again why I don't have a boyfriend.Ah! Is it really a necessity this time? Why's everybody asking me that? Why's everybody expecting me to have a boyfriend? I told the world about my reasons several times. The reasons all boil down to "timing". Timing is everything. I don't think it's sensible to have a boyfriend now that I am still a student. 

Anyway, why do guys asks you if you can be courted? If you say yes, does it mean the guy has a little bit of an insurance that he will succeed in his courtship?   If a girl says no, why would he say he will "wait" until the girl is ready? Really? Wait that long? Oh! I have a good feeling he CAN'T wait and will soon find a good target as "replacement". Hahah! I am not a fan of guys' sweet words specially if I just met them. I grew up with three boys and I heard a lot of their conversations. Maybe, it's one of the reasons why I don't want to have a boyfriend right now !

Yeah, I got a crush on someone from one of my  class now, still admire the intelligence of someone from my past and love how truthful the other guy from my past was and now ,  I wish all of their "lovable" features can be contained into that one man that I will meet someday. That will be impossible , I know, but I hope something close to that.

I've been telling my friends I will have a boyfriend when I'm done with school just to escape to their scrutinizing eyes. Honestly, I don't have any idea if I will really have one. Right now, I haven't seen that guy who would really make me feel crazy about him. 

Oh! I can get myself a boyfriend someday! Watch out! It's gonna be NOT anytime soon!